Friday, October 2, 2009

How can one person change so much in so short a time?

Ugh, I used to be so crazy. The life of the party. I was loud, obnoxious, and fun. I was almost never home, always drunk, and always making an idiot of myself. I created some of the best memories of my life partying, believe it or not. Yes, there were plenty of bad times to go with the good, but all of that seems worth it. Now... now I'm just a shell of that person. I'm not even the same whatsoever. I sit home, read, and watch TV all day. Partying is just not for me anymore (which sucks because I just turned 21!). What happened to me?!

This was me just a few months ago:

(Haha, I LOVE this picture, it's one of my proudest moments.)

Yes, I still drink, I still party, but I guess I don't feel the need to turn to alcohol to have a good time anymore. Yes, I'm so happy that my life is turning around, but at the same time, I feel so lost. I just don't seem to know who I am anymore. Maybe some of the reason I've turned around is because of my OWI (Operating While Intoxicated). I never want to go through what I've been dealing with ever again. And I won't, I know it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that while I'm happy with the changes I've made, I wish that some part of me still remained... the fun, crazy, giggling random girl.
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3 comments:

  1. justmeOctober 2, 2009 at 6:06 PM

    Enjoy your life. have as much fun as you can. Just don't drive when you drink.

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  2. LookingForNormalOctober 22, 2009 at 9:48 PM

    You can still have fun! Maybe just dont get to the point where you are puking. lol.
    This too shall pass, you will find a place in the medium of all of it where you will be happy. It is also called growing up. Sucks. My daughter was so upset with herself when she turned twenty one. lol. she went out and had dinner and forgot to even order a drink. lol. You dont have to drink to laugh although I think it lets peoples guard down and makes it easier, find some people who make you happy just being you. And please dont drink and drive; I think once you go through that it changes you. Best of luck. Stay sweet and bitchy. lol. whatever you want.

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  3. Organic MeatbagNovember 11, 2009 at 10:20 AM

    what's odd is that my alcohol consumption has only increased in the last year or two...probably because my job makes me miserable...hehehehe...

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