Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Flies spread diseases... keep yours zipped.



Does anyone ever get tired of the word "slut"? Who the fuck came up with this word anyway? And how come it only seems to be the women that are referred to as sluts? Guys fuck anything with a vagina and they get a commendation and a slap on the back. They're known as "players." What the hell? How come I can't go sleep with anyone I want? Not that I want to, but it's the logistics of the whole thing. I'm going to boycott the whole male gender, I think. And to all the nice boys out there, please do not take offense to this at all. You are the males who deserve to breathe the oxygen of this world.

You know what else I hate? The phrase "Life isn't fair." Why can't it be fair? Why do all the sucky people get all the good things in life, while the good people get the shit? I get so sick of my family constantly struggling to just make it through the day when we do nothing wrong.

Haha, shiiit, I think I'm done venting for the time being. Have some quirky or sarcastic comments? Feel free to leave 'em.

Friday, October 2, 2009

How can one person change so much in so short a time?

Ugh, I used to be so crazy. The life of the party. I was loud, obnoxious, and fun. I was almost never home, always drunk, and always making an idiot of myself. I created some of the best memories of my life partying, believe it or not. Yes, there were plenty of bad times to go with the good, but all of that seems worth it. Now... now I'm just a shell of that person. I'm not even the same whatsoever. I sit home, read, and watch TV all day. Partying is just not for me anymore (which sucks because I just turned 21!). What happened to me?!

This was me just a few months ago:

(Haha, I LOVE this picture, it's one of my proudest moments.)

Yes, I still drink, I still party, but I guess I don't feel the need to turn to alcohol to have a good time anymore. Yes, I'm so happy that my life is turning around, but at the same time, I feel so lost. I just don't seem to know who I am anymore. Maybe some of the reason I've turned around is because of my OWI (Operating While Intoxicated). I never want to go through what I've been dealing with ever again. And I won't, I know it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that while I'm happy with the changes I've made, I wish that some part of me still remained... the fun, crazy, giggling random girl.